Irony

And what is up with people using facebook as an outlet of anger these days? Scolding and insulting people on your status will only make you look bad. Not to mention the bad grammar and spelling. Really, people, grow up a bit! Take it face to face, not on freakin' facebook! Bleurgh.

I am mad at myself for being sick whenever I need myself most

During the weekend, when I stuff to do, my body crumblesss.

Long rant on studies, pregnancy, relationships, and whatnot.



Art test tomorrow. Mid-year exam next week! Shaky on Art, don't attend class nor tuition. Since I'm sub-science, taking it outside. After-school, find teacher. Ham hor la. Need good results on this, because I want to go Art school. Prolly have to take another test outside anyways. Love the topic though. Given five. There was one on clothes, apparently. <3



AND IT IS very freakin annoying that the ministry of education or blah thinks it's OK to introduce 4 new subjects and expect us to master it in 2 years. Stupid. These are the important subjects, and they give us the least time for it. Science and Living Skills are given like what, 5 years to study?



The stream thing is also hard, especially on those who aren't specific of their careers yet. Which by the way, they should try to figure it out. Of course this is a hard decision, a life-changing one. What the heck, by all means, be decisive. I am 1000% there. Very sure. Very very.



Dropping chemistry. WTF. I think it could be interesting, but the teacher doesn't make it so. It really depends on the teacher. Students tooo, of course. It's like life, you know. The mother is supposed to protect the baby's life. And the baby should protect itself.



She constantly toggles between English and Malay, sometimes incorrectly so. I am too distracted by grammar mistakes. But of above these, I didn't do anything. Because that's how things work here. Teacher talk, you shut up. Education system of Msia.



And when I see pregnant woman, especially teachers, the picture of them doing "it" pops into mind. Teachers look frigid, but their tummy says another thing. Misogynistic comment, I know. Ever since Form 3 and learning the process of baby-making. Sorry lah.



History teacher(the one who walked out of class) was still...urm...sulking? Came in, didn't talk until half an hour later.



Went out with Mum to Secret Recipe. The food was quite OK. But the staff there wasn't. Only 2 customers there, prolly thought it would be OK to slack off a bit. Unprofessional sial. Can hear the waiter and waitress chatting loudly. Stop flirting.



And sigh, why is it that guys tend to talk to me more when they have a girlfriend/crush? And then their girlfriend get jealous. Is that the point? And then a guy and a girl broke up, the girl still likes the guy, but the guy can easily change his mind. And then sometimes guys hurt people's feeling, but they don't realise it, at all. Guys and girls are wired so differently it's like another species. Numbnuts.



They've so crazy when they want you, once they have it they don't bother anymore. Like yearning for a prize. Once you've got it it's time to aim another one.



So the mathematical reasoning is,

He care, you don't care,

He'll care,

He care, you care,

He'll not care,

Conclusion: Don't care.



Poor Ding got double-whammy(or triple) today. Three "yellings". But he very well deserved it. He broke a part of the sytrofoam Wei Kien sponsored for the class as alphabets. Vincent shouted at him on the spot. They're good friends, but they're kinda like that. Other classmates chimed in, too. He's funny, but there's a fine line between funny and annoying. Wei Kien then yelled at him, because it's his. So payback for last time Ding shouted at him over the chair. Now they're even. And then teacher came in and scolded him, and asked him to stand behind.



He's funny to observe, but I don't talk to him much because he is explosive. His hands can't stop moving. And he beats girls. Which I abhorr. Some of the guys in my class, don't really know respect.



Stupid body keep breaking down during the weekends. Not only I don't get to skip school, I have to skip fun stuff. F YOU. Not gonna let it happen again. Maybe I ate too much of junk food. When I do I get sick and then lose some weight. Not that it's a good way to lose weight.



It is very clever to invest in yourself now. Not into relationships. Arm yourself with new skills and talents. Sigh, how cheesy. But not like I study. It's just this stupid attitude I have. Because school hours are long, I refuse to study at home. Do it all in school. By the time I'm home at 4 I'm tired for anything except for recreation.



I'm typing too much info. Why not. Bored.



There's 2 types of post here. One for personal record and one for your entertainment. Personal record are like diary stuff and ranting, just something I want to get out. Not exactly to entertain. While the latter is more of pictures. This is the former. :)



I should put people more anonymously, before they get offended, really....



HAVE AN EFFING NICE DAY WHEREVER YOU ARE.

I am so tempted to swear.

A lil' drama

Today a few teacher got mad at us. As in the whole class.


Firstly, teacher made us tear our assignment and throw it into the bin because some of us didn't bring it. Character, down to the bin, or something like that.

Next, teacher(another) stormed out of class after throwing a pile of papers(some went to me because I sat first row). Went to apologize, which was a stupid idea because she obviously hasn't cool down yet. It was because some of us didn't to homework. I did the homework and got hit by some papers but yet I have to go apologize, because I was the assistant monitor.

Well, no, actually I didn't really apologize. Theng Loo did. Monitor, what! And he didn't bring his book, lol. Only both of us went, to find her in the office.

Other than that, it was OK. :D I liked today, actually.

Put it this way, we triggered the teacher's fuse but it was obviously a short fuse. Being a teacher is stressful.

After school, a guy came out of the box holding a cake for his girlfriend as surprise. Sweet! Wei Xian and Shi Yong, I think.

Choon Lam(?) wanted to learn piano. Asked him why. 'I want to impress girls.', he said.

Wake up, people! 1, CRUELTY FOR FASHION.

GRAPHIC POST.
My blog should have content warning but I don't want to trouble my readers to press the button everytime.

It's nice to be ignorant about an animal's suffering, but someone posted a video of a pregnant cow being slaughtered on facebook.... So I started searching some stuff. Gaining knowledge about animal cruelty is suffering. Because we watch them suffer.

It is easy to blame the people who get their hands bloody, but we should also blame ourselves because we drive them to do it. Supply and demand. If nobody wants to buy fur, nobody would make fur.

After seeing how the animals suffer I think that having my phone stolen is just a minute issue. Oh well, I was lucky to have a phone in the first place. I care about animals more because we hold their fate in our hands. (cheesy :D)

KAY, I love animals but I admit being a bloody hypocrite(unsconsciously sub-consciously and consciously). I use leather. I eat chicken(but not pork/beef/etc).

BUT THUS, I SHALL CHANGE. NO MORE LEATHER. And if I ever manage to be a fashion designer one they I won't use materials which causes the animals to suffer. CRUELTY-FREE FASHION. Like Stella McCartney!

FUR & LEATHER, because we have to rip their hide off. Images are particularly graphic. Not gonna lust for designer handbags. Those which contains... animal carcass.


http://www.squidoo.com/christmas_without_cruelty


The animals farmed for their fur are kept in small, barren cages averaging 90x30x40 cm and stereotypical behaviour like self-mutilation and cannibalism occur. They are killed by gassing, neck-breaking or anal electrocution.


I could point you to some links where German-shepherd dogs and badgers are being skinned alive, and they are still alive when all the skin has been taken from their bodies, but these are too harrowing and sickening. I cried uncontrollably when I saw these covertly taken videos and was shaken for weeks (I am still very angry when I think about it, not to mention some of the sick comments). I will not put you through this, you need to take my word for it.
(Passage taken from somewhere else, links above & below)

One day I'm gonna print out these graphic images and hand it out to anyone I see wearing fur. None in Malaysia, I'm glad. Because it's nonsense to wear fur in 36 degree celsius!

SILK
From: http://animals.change.org/blog/category/veganism_and_vegetarianism
The silk worm needs to make a hole in the cocoon in order to emerge in its new-and-improved moth form. But that hole damages part of the cocoon — and the profits — of silk farmers, so before the silk worms can get that far, they're either gassed, steamed, or boiled to death: within their cozy shells. The only silk worms allowed to play out their cycle are those designated to be the breeders to keep the industry going.

Each cocoon will only yield a very, very small amount of silk. For this reason many thousands of cocoons are required to gather enough silk for a garment. For instance, to produce just 40kg of silk, 200kg of cocoons are required and 11.25 tonnes of mulberry leaves. 2500 silkworms are needed just for slightly less than 0.5kg. So, for 40kg, nearly a quarter of a million silkworms have to die.

Sheep are subject to much of the same types of cruelty as other animals used in agriculture: castration without anesthetics, docked tails, inhumane transport, and disease.
(CASTRATION)

A sheep is shorn for the first time when they are about 14-15 months old. They are then shorn annually. Early season shearing in wet, windy and cold conditions mean that the sheep may die from exposure and disease.

Australia, which produces 25-30 percent of the world's wool, uses the particularly brutal method of "mulesing" to prevent problems with fly and maggot infestations. Mulesing solves the problem by cutting out chunks of skin, without painkillers, so the sheep will regrow scar tissue that won't attract flies. Sometimes those wounds end up attracting flies, but the farmers will cut their losses as long as enough sheep stay healthy enough for it to be profitable. The all-important bottom line also means that the shearing process itself is typically brutal because the focus is on time and money, not the animals.

Change.org has some awakening posts on issues like poverty, war, human trafficking.

GO SEE SEE AND OPEN YOUR EYES!

Whatever. :(

Today wasn't so good.
I was tired of thinking about the stolen phone. It's annoying having to suspect my classmates. UGH.

And sometimes the boys can be insensitive. Ding keep on patting on my cheek. He wants to slap me but he doesn't dare so he keeps doing that. Annoying, man. He really loves to pick fights. And then Theng Loo directed some stupid misogynistic comment. "All woman don't have brains." But he apologized later. :) And others were also pissy mood like me and insensitive.

It's frustrating to tolerate with insensitive guys. They think it's funny to be rude. I don't know. Maybe it's their way of being friendly? They like to tease.

Ding and Kwok Shien fought a little yesterday. Ding accidentially kicked the soup and that as usual Kwok Shien's mouth kicked into action and scolded Ding. And Ding kind of over-reacted and kicked the soup again. And again. Until the plastic bag came off and the tupperware split soup and the cultery holder broke. Ish.

As usual Nicole came to stop them before they fight. So it's not really a physical fight, just verbal fighting. Shouting. Whole class silent except for them.

But today they were playing basketball. Ding keep on trying to block Kwok Shien. Dunno. Probably OK already. When guys fight they will confront each other, girls they mostly avoid each other. Got example.

Two bestfriends are fighting because of a guy or something. Ish. So long friends, no need care about the guy. The guy is anyway, a player. Urm. Dunno lah.

I don't like it when guys really lose their temper-along with their minds. When they're in that mode, they just want to fight. Even if you apologize they'll step over your head. Girls will just cry lah.

But anyway, if a guy wants to pick a fight. Don't do it sitting down. Ask him to stand up. And then knee him in the groins or something. Or jab the eyes. It's annoying that I can't keep a straight face when someone tries to confront me. I always laugh. Smiling is a submissive feature, you know?

And hey, Fikri found back his phone. His "friend" stole it. He saw him using it so he took it back. Curse the fucktard who took my phone.

Guat Tyng is coming to my class. I wish Nam was still in my class. I want to comment about some stuff, but I can't. Dang dang! It's annoying to dislike someone. Also tiring to be suspicious of classmates.


AND, about yesterday tuition:

The teachers were full of sexual innuendos. Went for two subjects. Both like hamsap jokes. Ugh. But OK I did laugh.

For Malay we were doing an essay on "Perpaduan" (unity of race, etc). And the the teacher went like, "Got cindian, cinlay, and cibai." First two is chinese-indian, chinese-malay. The last one is a hokien cuss word.

And then for English the teacher asked what we like to play. A guy answered

"I like to play chess".

Then the teacher went and say,

"OK. Don't tell me you like to play chest."

And he said during arm-wrestling girls have the upper hand. Surprisingly. It's if they wear low-cut clothing. He said, "So big....... the eye."

It's just a one time thing. The English teacher doesn't like Sri Bestarians. Made some rude comments. Said he was polite(not). He's also sarcastic. Said private school students "lan ci". Sombong. Arrogant. Because he teaches home-tuition with some Bestarians.

They weren't good at English, and he generalized the whole Sri Bestari students. Said we all have bad English. Pfft.

OK, that is all. Shit you losers who steal.

WTFBQQ someone stole my phone

I am confirmed someone took it. At first I wasn't sure because I'm a careless person. I was hoping I'd misplace it or something. NO.

In the car just now, tried to call my phone number. It went through. Then 2nd time, someone turned off the phone. BITCH.(bad words starting to spew)

My phone was safe until the last period. Which was CSA. BITCH. Packed bag before going to computer lab. About 20 minutes later, came back. Phone lost. Phone was in my spectacle case. Specs was also inside. Nice. Phoneless & almost blind. Survive through contact lens.

What the fuck man? Can they just take the phone? MY FUCKING SPECS. What do they need it for? I'm blind. Marc Jacob specs. FUCK FUCK FUCK

Brought the phone because I was going to try Kasturi tuition later. Damn man. I was telling Mei Yen, Rm2800 for one tuition class. Because that's how much the N97 costs. And OMGFUCKBQQ my glasses too. It was about RM800.

The only people who knew I brought handphone was Ding, Zhi Qi, Vinoth and Nicole. Took it out during BM to show my brother's pic, because she asked how my bro look like once. I did it furtively lah. Went to the back of the class weyh. Did it under the desk. Ding keep on trying to snatch it(wanted to see). Ding's style lah.

I'm thinking it's someone from our class who took it, and I hate the thought. We're classmates. I trust them. It sucks to think one of them are waiting a chance to steal something. What the heck about bestari being one family? I hope it's someone I don't know. :/

I hope that whoever stole it will have everything precious to them stolen. I hope that whoever stole it won't try to act friends with me. I hope that it is not someone from my class. It's gross to be friendly with someone who betrayed me. This is the part that gets to me. It reminds me of the form 1 thing.

Let it be the janitor, some other punks. Like some loser who always try to go through people's bag to see if there's any valuables to steal.

Fikri got his iPhone stolen too(he found it back).

Moral: Bringing phone to school is bad, keeping your phone in your spectacle case is bad, leaving your phone unattended is worst.

And damn, that phone is my brother's. HAHA. Laugh in my face. And people asked me to report, but really, they're probably gonna be like, "Told you so."

Ok I am thinking pretty childishly. And a lot of bad words. Calvin(Calvin & Hobbes) said, "Those who don't know any bad words have it harder in life." OK this is a rant, spewing expletives.

FUCK THE PEOPLE WHO STEAL. COWARD BITCHES WITH ZERO CONSCIENCE AND CORRUPTED MIND AND DISRUPTED THINKING.