erm.

i feel kinda down. but no matter wat i gotta try rite. but i cant seem to do it.
yes tok to her.
but i really can't. like i'm being hard wired to avoid her. but i will try.
althou i kinda suspect dat aft typin out tis heartfelt post, de nx day i wld grow back to my cold stone heart and diss tis post. like wtf am i writin?

argh. i dunno. i wanna but i dunwanna. WTH. i really can't.
i dunno how to start.
and even when i start i wld piss off everythin there & den, back to square one. FML. ok i nd to swear. dun like to swear but wana swear. seriously. i'm a bitch in tis area.

sigh.

can i jus commit suicide & not deal with this? heart hurts. really.

why is it so difficult... why why why... why can't tis family be normal. I AM THE WEIRD BITCH DATS WHY. ... duno. gd nite.