jauh

lagi jauh engkau lari, lagi laju aku kejar.

lagi jauh engkau cuba hindar, lagi kerap aku singgah.

jangan lari.

sebab aku akan terus di sini.

ini rumah aku.

jangan lari jauh-jauh.

:)

if you're happy & he know, you clap his hand!

webcamwhoring is fun!

It's already June~ half of the year 2010(:

I will try to blog more this month!!

Geeky side revealed

There's school today. Skipped. After two weeks of exams and with holidays JUST around the corner, not having the studying mood...

Nice to skip, eh? Can't do it often though. Must go tomorrow. Class photo! Ker-chek!

Don't think I'd be doing anything productive during holidays. Like surf net... and the Altador Cup Tournament of Neopets! No, seriously. I like. NEOPETS. My dirty little secret. Well not so secret anymore.

My team won last year. Krawk Island. Sigh. Does anyone even play neopets anymore? It's been 5 years I've played! :O

And then, there's also Pokemon:

Get the HeartGold version. And then there's a new version coming out. Black and White. 0.0

AND THEN, I SHOULD ALSO MAKE MY TAMAGOTCHI COME BACK ALIVE:

There's Tamagotchi Colour, but the Japs still hadn't decide to make an English version. Hmph!

When we immerse ourselves in entertainment like videogames and TV it's like being in a virtual world. And doing stuff in the virtual world is unproductive, of course.

I shall also sew and draw, for the sake of my ambition.

Now that I think about it, I don't want to sit wasting my time. OK. Fashion designer. I need to get out the sewing machine.

I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS.

berhati-hati

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dunia semakin berbahang.

dunia semakin panas.

jenayah haram.

peperangan.

islam di tindas.

islam di keji.

islam di kaki-kakikan.

dunia hampir kiamat.

astagfirullah halazim.

Wifely steps

Today marks my first stint as a guest blogger! When the sunny and inspiring Toni of Wifely Steps asked me to write a guest post to celebrate the 7th anniversary of her marriage (and by extension, her blog), I leapt at the opportunity.

The theme was, naturally, "Wifely Steps." There were so many things I could have written about, but one thing I was sure about was that nobody needed to hear marriage advice from a newlywed 28 year-old. So I wrote about the first wifely step I ever took. It was a wonderful opportunity for me to reflect on the journey and remind myself of my choice. Sharing what I wrote with Marlon got me a googly-eyed look, a big bear hug and a whispered "Thank you" - all of which were nice too.

Reposting from Toni's blog (different pics there)!

Deepa's Wifely Steps

I’ll let you in on a secret. The biggest wifely step I ever took was precisely two months and twenty-five days before I became my husband’s wife.

The diamond ring was on my finger, the wedding date was set, the honeymoon flights had been booked – and so had my one-way ticket to Singapore. Marlon, who had gotten a kick-ass job in Singapore, had been based there for the entire four years we’d been dating. Since we both agreed that the Singapore dollar would give us a better financial head start in our shared life, the moment we had gotten engaged, moving there became a foregone conclusion.

The thing was, I didn’t want to move. I loved my life. I had a career that made me creatively fulfilled, ecstatically happy and financially rewarded, a tight-knit family of females with whom I shared everything, and a large, loving and irreplaceable network of friends (a choir, actually) made my life sparkling and vibrant.

Unlike many Filipinos who would leap at the chance to live and work abroad, I was staunchly in love with life in the Philippines – with our people, our beaches, our Salcedo markets and Cubao Expos and cheap finds at Landmark, and damned if I was going to give it up to start from scratch, jobless and friendless, in a country about the size of Quezon City.

Marlon and I with the Singapore skyline

But when I said yes to Marlon’s proposal, I – by default, almost – also said yes to Singapore. We were overjoyed at the prospect that we were finally going to be together after four years of physical separation, but there were trepidations underneath the happy surface. I was not too excited about being lonely and financially dependent (at least until I got a job). Marlon was worried that I was someday going to resent him for being the reason for the disappearance of my wonderful life.

After a while, I realized I had said yes without really making a choice. And that beyond putting on a brave face, what I really had to do to start our new life together with no fears, no doubts, was simply… choose.

So on October 4th, 2007, only two months and twenty-five days before our wedding date, I really, truly and freely chose to move to Singapore. I wrote Marlon this letter, excerpts of which I will share with you.

Dear Marlon,
This is what I see. I didn’t choose Singapore. 
I chose you. I chose to be with you… no matter what that looks like.
Starting out, that was all I really wanted. I realized now, I’m finally getting what I really want. 
Coming into this marriage, you are my biggest commitment. I’m not committed to where we’re going to live, what we’re going to do, how much we’re going to earn, what we’re going to do with it. I’m committed to you – my best friend, my partner, my husband, the one true love of my life. And I’m committed to being with you – finally, forever. With that commitment in place, the rest just follows. It’s just details. It’s just circumstances. So I can rattle around and drive myself nuts about circumstances. Or I can see that I’m finally getting something I want with all my heart. Something I said I’d have no matter what, damn the torpedoes. You. You in front of me on December 29, and by my side for the rest of my life.
So there’s nothing there for me to do, or be, just yet. That only means I haven’t created it yet – and that I still can. Thank you for giving me the space to do just that in our relationship. Thank you that my life as me, Deepa, doesn’t end when our marriage begins. Thank you, because I know creating my life and sharing it with you will be so much fun. Thank you, because whatever game I choose to play, having you on my team will enable to me to kick some serious ass.
Thank you, because who you are to me is someone who is worth it. Thank you for being such a beautiful person, in the face of whom a beautiful life is almost relatively easy to give up. Thank you for being the beautiful person who is the beginning of a beautiful life where I am moving to.
I love you. And I choose you.

Making a real choice freed me to be truly happy on our big day

To date, that has been my biggest wifely step, from which all my wifely steps have followed. Some of those subsequent steps have flowed with grace and ease while others have been taken in awkward fits and shaky starts. 

Some have been fun – like learning to cook, assisted by my husband the kitchen god, or buying him a Playstation 3 for Christmas (to the horror of many wife friends), or simply allowing myself the joy of saying “Yes” when my husband says to me, “Let me take care of you”, or easing into the role of obsessive-compulsive itinerary planner for every trip and holiday (and both of us being peripatetic travelers, believe me there have been a lot). 

Sharing childhood memories with Marlon at the Grand Place in Brussels

Others have been challenging and difficult – like this past weekend, when Marlon and I found ourselves having a “who-would-have-thought-we’d-ever-be-here?” moment at the Great Wall of China. I, the sleep-till-noon-sloth, pushed myself to complete the entire trek up the mountainside, climbing hundreds of steps on a stone staircase with practically a vertical incline in a dress and Chucks, because I knew there was nothing more my adrenaline junkie husband wanted than to reach the top of the Great Wall.

At the summit of last weekend's trek up the Great Wall of China

Starting my life as a wife began with a choice. And each wifely step I take every single day is just that, too – a choice. Even if the choice is inspired by my husband, or by our shared goals, or by my love for him or his love for me, the choice is always mine to make.

And I know I – and my wonderful husband – wouldn’t have it any other way.

.my best.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

— Marilyn Monroe

:)

dear bye,

bye's engagement day

from left : me, ina, bye,eila & fiza

my dear beautiful bff,

hi bye! how are you? masih terasa di-awang awangan lagi tak selepas 3 hari bergelar tunangan orang? haha.happy engaged! wa gembira untuk lu.dan wa pasti, semua kawan-kawan kita happy untuk lu dgn pojie jugee.. :) alhamdulillah, Tuhan permudahkan jalan untuk lu dan pojie.semoga terus dipermudahkan sehingga ke alam perkahwinan.sama seperti masa di majlis pertunangan wani dulu, perasaan wa tetap sama.tetap susah untuk melepaskan.lepaskan lu.lepas kan lu untuk melangkah ke alam baru , fasa baru dalam hidup lu.entah la bye...wa rasa hilang kawan-kawan.jangan marah dulu.tapi itu la wa.sampai la ke hari pertunangan lu, bila wa tengok lu dah siap make up baru la wa sedar yang kita semua dah besar dan sudah bersedia untuk berkomitmen.bila tengok lu senyum kat wa masa wa jenguk ke bilik lu, hati wa terus cair dan wa cakap dalam hati ; "bye, lu sgt comel dan cantik...dan wa akan doakan yang terbaik untuk lu.amin'. :)

bye,

masih ingat lagi tak zaman kita belajar dulu.lu wa dan nana.ke mana-mana pun mesti bertiga.korang berdua adalah kawan terbaik dalam hidup wa.yang lain pun terbaik juga.cuma ye la..zaman tu korang la paling rapat dengan wa.ada untuk wa.susah senang.sedih ketawa.banyak yang kita kongsi.seingat wa, kita tak pernah bergaduh.makan sama-sama.tido sama-sama.shopping sama-sama.naik bas, turun bas sama-sama.kat mana ada nana, kat situ ada wa dgn lu.kat mana ada lu, kat situ ada wa dgn nana. :') kita kongsi banyak benda.kita kongsi banyak pengalaman.dan wa tahu, lu dengan nana takkan pernah tinggalkan wa.

masih ingat lagi tak kes kat kandang dulu.yang masa otw balik resak nana bercakap-cakap dengan bulan pasal friendship..yang tiba-tiba wa emo dan melalak tengah-tengah jalan.hahahahah! owh sgt bodoh. ;p kenapa la perangai wa macam tu erk? bongok seyh! hehe.tapi bila korang datang dan pelok wa, wa tau dan wa yakin korang adalah kawan yang paling baik pernah wa ada.bila lu dgn nana pujuk wa supaya jangan nangis, wa jadi makin menangis.hahaha.bukan apa wa terharu gila weyh! hah..banyak lagi wa nak cerita ni...sila baca sampai habis. :p

lu ingat tak masa wa keluar dengan pikor tak sampai satu jam.wa balik rumah, lu tengah layan hindustan.wa ambik bantal wa baring sebelah lu, wa nangis sambil potong kuku.hahahahahahha! :p ala kes pikor marah wa bela kuku lepas tu pakai perwarna kuku tu! ;p

hihi.wa ingat lagi lu pujuk wa..dan lu salah kan pikor.kenapa plak tak boleh warnakan kuku? masa tu bukan wa boleh solat pun kan? hihi.wa tau apa yang wa buat tu salah, tapi lu tetap back up wa.hihi ;p terima kasih bye! lepas tu lu ingat tak masa nana kena tahan dengan pak guard sbb dia pakai baju singkat.hahaha.lepas tu pak guard suruh dia depa tangan supaya dapat bukti kan dia pakai baju singkat, dia depakan tangan tapi dia angkat sikit je! hahahahahaha! kelako bodoh! :p kita berdua dah terkekek-kekek kat sebelah pagar fakulti.hehe.adoi..banyak betul la kalau wa nak cerita kat sini.dan ianya akan buat wa bertambah sedih! wa ni senang je nak nangis.memang kuat nangis pun! u know me better. ;p

'stop! stop! stopppppp!!!' - ini adalah yang paling kelako! words ni keluar masa lu gaduh on the phone dgn pojie kat resak dulu.pertama kali wa dengar lu jerit.tapi macam kelakar! mati lu kena gelak semula dgn kitaorang,hahahaha.cute! apa-apa pun..sekarang comfirm lu dah dengan pojie.bagus la 15 tahun (ke?betul kan kalau wa salah) berkawan, nak kawen gak korang.sukeee... :))

bye,

wa nak lu tau.yang wa sangat-sangat happy dengan apa yang berlaku sekarang.lu dan pojie.korang memang sentiasa ditakdirkan untuk bersama.alhamdulillah.semoga jodoh hingga ke hujung nyawa.pojie adalah yang paling layak untuk lu, wa yakin dia boleh jaga lu sampai hari tua korang.sweeettt... :)

to pojie,

sila jaga bestfriend wa baik-baik.dia dah macam adik beradik wa.kalau wa tau dia sedih, wa tumbuk lu laju-laju! hehehe! (tapi wa macam yakin je dia akan bahagia dgn lu!!!! hihihih)

tahniah.i love u.

:)

love love love,

-kekeRr -

prince of persia

menonton [prince of persia] di klcc semalam.dan saya tidak mahu bercakap panjang mengenainya.korang pun tahu cerita ni sangat best kan? hihi.

dastan, kenapa kamu begitu hot?? mengapa? :p

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Housewife of a day

Today my house-cleaning mood is here(:

So I did some housework. Wash the dishes, tidy & clean bathroom sink area, my cardboards & lastly do my desk!

I am so proud of myself :D

Every little gifts & photos from/of my love ones:)

Baptism

I'VE DONE IT!!!!!!!!! :D
Baptism's done.

I don't remember waking up at 6 something this year. Only took 8 minutes to get ready! Spent about an hour waiting before leaving BSD, though.

Sleepy. Slept like a pig on the way home.

Wisma Eagles is big. Got dunk in a pool for a second, then change clothes. Gave short testimony.

It's nice to be "officially" Christian.

Still sleepy, thou. I can't take naps. :( If I do I'd have a 3 hour nap for the least. If that happens it'll be hard for me to sleep at night. MONDAYS. Monday Blues. Bleurgh

the words win the photos

I think my blogging spirit had already left me for good. You see May is already ending.. and my May posts are less than 10?! Sometimes I wonder what is the purpose of blogging? To talk about how you feel? To show off how wonderful is your life? To write down special events for memories? To write down your everyday life? Recently I found my old diaries.. which I used to write in almost every single day. About my day, my real-and-true-and-dont-need-to-hide feelings. Can really write about anything & anyone. And to read back, I found myself so silly & childish. Some many memories & little secrets. Haha.. I have really grown(: LOL! omg, cannot stand my wordy introduction. hahahah, somemore I got no conclusion & I am still blogging.

One day Lovely & I were going out, we bumped into his brother Jerry & gf Xiaoxin. So they lent us her very very professional camera for a day!! So we were trying to take as much photos as possible. But good camera can shoot flaws clearly!! lol.  

I wanted to blog about alot of things! with alot of photos!! But because the photos sizes are too big, and I'm lazy to resize. And my laptop or/and my internet is lousy. they took million minutes to upload.

So after this two photos.. I am sort of giving up.

Okay... Confirmed give up already.

That day I had a new CK bag!(: from Lovely(:

but I also lost my bracelet): agan):

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Next time.. it's already going 4am!

Paintball

Today was tiring. In a good way.

Paintball at Tanamerah. Hot. Humid. Rained at the end. Soaked.

Face mask. Vest. Marker. BANG!




24 people. 5 matches. I skipped 2 matches though, because I was lazy. Ashamedly so.
Some of the people who paid deposit didn't show up. Dunno.

Had to wait for Kula. Our organizer apparently overslept.

Dylan wearing Kwok Shien's earphones. I freaked when Kwok Shien went "YO! YO! YO!!!" wearing those headphones. SERIOUSLY.


Worst injuries of the day:

James got Nazri by the neck. Poor guy. He didn't seem to notice it was that bad, though. Only when he looked at the photo. He was like, "Omg, are you serious?".


Desmond slid and got his knee scrapped.

I left unscathed, because I'm a pussy playing paintball. I was hiding by the tree the whole time. Bullets whizzed by. Got hit once in the leg, didn't feel much because it was far away, but the bullet did burst on my pants.

I admire Nicole for being good in sports and all these stuffs.

Went home with 9 people in Theng Seng's car. 6 in the backseat! Squashed with Kar Man in shotgun. Bet Ping Kuang would love to trade places with me. Lol. It was fun though.



I wish I could sleep and wake up at my own accord for tonight. Have to get up at 7, though.
Tomorrow is the day! Baptism!

i hearts Kyuru

public holiday. SUPER FUN wif him. watched a stupid ghost movie The abondoned. (i bought de tix T_T) it was BAD! ok den we ate alot of snack like maggie moo. shoppin at Orchard Ion, Far east, Orchard central & somerset 313. wee~~ den aft movie it was already evening. ate at Waraku. yummy again! ordered extra side like butter scallop and alcohol drink. ee the drink Kyuru like i dun like! duno wat omeshu? shu something. the green plum? eck. yep!


































































awesome leather jacket right? (i bought for him ok! :X)



saw a long lost fren Aries. workin as beauty consultant watson. gosh! i swear i dun regonise her at all HAHAA! she saw Kyuru den totally regonise him but coulnd't with me. (den she said she knew me by my front teeth in the end. goodness! LOL i hate my teeth)






























































































ya i miss him. sigh