i still feel shitty

i still feel shitty. i wanna change my attitude... but.. wat is trust? argh. nvm. so like jus some random updates. my pgmall bag is at post office. gonna collect it on mon. waiting for both my lenses to arrive. nudy violet and barbie black. just a few more days away yay! yea... gonna dance later at esplanade. sigh. i feel lousy. can i just die somewher? so i wun make ppl suffer anymore. maybe i shld try poisoning myself or somethin. hahaa. Mizu, Suki.... kinda miss u both suddenly :X maybe cuz u both laugh so funny and strange XD!!