sigh. wat's wrong wif me

RANTINGS. dun read if u dunwan to.
can u like not go? somehow i really really regretted not going to batam wif my frens. wat's worse? 3d2n?! fug man. screw it. argh. nvm. all i can say is, i let u go. GO. i know i'm being selfish in a way but i'm being me. i can't help it. i wan u by my side but it does not work. i dunwan being "said" so i let u go. ok? it saves ur face too. so u dun have to tell them, ur fren does not wan u to go. nuff' said. tis is partly 1 of de many reasons why i freakin HATE myself. i depend on u too much. if i depend on u, i won't give u space and want ur attention all de time. BLAH BLAH BLAH. i'm so sick of myself. fug off! ~_~